'cause everything that you thought I would be

[greatestcool]

[If you're up very late at night/early in the morning, you might hear something slide under the door. It's a simple piece of paper folded in half, but even without unfolding it the writing is kind of obvious. It looks like someone angrily took a purple marker to this piece of paper with the most aggressive writing ever. It's specifically written in Japanese so at least the whole hotel can't read it if you don't destroy it immediately.

It should be fairly obvious what total jerk it's from even without being properly signed. As it goes on it looks like the sender just stopped trying. Several sentences are incomplete or horrible run-ons, but no one should have expected Ryuunosuke to be a great writer.]

Tsukiyama -
I'm sure you don't want to hear from me right now. I can't blame you. Even if I could ignore everything else that happened, there's no way I can ignore what I said to you. So I'm going to start with that, because that was awful. I've never said anything so awful to anyone - or at least, anyone I like. That's not the point, the point is that

I didn't mean what I said. I don't even know why I said it. I was angry and upset and frustrated and not all of that was aimed at you and I just opened my damn mouth and that fell out and I'm so sorry

When I told you I'd never hurt you I wasn't lying. I'd never turn you over to that organization or anything and I'd never EVER want you to go hungry like this again but I wasn't thinking and I just

i don't expect you to forgive me I don't think you should Im so tired of trying to write this and make it make sense i dont think it does at this point either but

maybe i shouldnt go back with you to tokyo i cant hurt you then im so tired of hurting you
- sorry