[Ryuunosuke recognizes that look. It's the same look he sees every time he looks in a mirror and it's the look he knows he has in his eyes no matter what expression he's attempting to pull off. It's why he'll never be seen as normal because he always looks like that.
But for some reason that doesn't get him to back off. Maybe it should. Maybe he should just leave this alone and let it be. He's done more than enough yelling today, hasn't he? It's not going to help to keep doing this.
If he's honest with himself though, he can't stop. Tsukiyama isn't like this - he isn't dead in the eyes like Ryuunosuke is. He's passionate and there's always something there, even when he's lying to the others and even when he's strangely distant he still looks alive.
Maybe it's stupid to think of this like that, but Ryuunosuke's not about to let Tsukiyama lose that.]
First of all you can drop the honorific. I'd still prefer that you call me by name, but I don't think anything I say or do is going to get you to budge on that.
Secondly you can just talk to me. About anything. About everything. I... I know you have been but...
[...No, he can think of a better way to put this.]
Stop thinking of me as a human. When you talk to me I don't want you to see a human. I want you to talk to me like you'd talk to other ghouls. I don't care how different that may be - if it'll do anything to help, I want it.
[...]
You said you'll look out for me, right? I want to look out for you too. --And don't think of it as being weak or anything! It doesn't mean you're weak. It means that I want to help you. That's all. Maybe someday I'll be able to read you well enough to know when to ask, but for now I don't. So... so just talk to me. Okay? Even if you think it's dumb or if it doesn't matter.
I want to support you. I want to help you. I...
[...is it weird to say it? It's probably weird to say it. He's going to say it anyway.]
I don't want to just be yours - I want you to be mine too.
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But for some reason that doesn't get him to back off. Maybe it should. Maybe he should just leave this alone and let it be. He's done more than enough yelling today, hasn't he? It's not going to help to keep doing this.
If he's honest with himself though, he can't stop. Tsukiyama isn't like this - he isn't dead in the eyes like Ryuunosuke is. He's passionate and there's always something there, even when he's lying to the others and even when he's strangely distant he still looks alive.
Maybe it's stupid to think of this like that, but Ryuunosuke's not about to let Tsukiyama lose that.]
First of all you can drop the honorific. I'd still prefer that you call me by name, but I don't think anything I say or do is going to get you to budge on that.
Secondly you can just talk to me. About anything. About everything. I... I know you have been but...
[...No, he can think of a better way to put this.]
Stop thinking of me as a human. When you talk to me I don't want you to see a human. I want you to talk to me like you'd talk to other ghouls. I don't care how different that may be - if it'll do anything to help, I want it.
[...]
You said you'll look out for me, right? I want to look out for you too. --And don't think of it as being weak or anything! It doesn't mean you're weak. It means that I want to help you. That's all. Maybe someday I'll be able to read you well enough to know when to ask, but for now I don't. So... so just talk to me. Okay? Even if you think it's dumb or if it doesn't matter.
I want to support you. I want to help you. I...
[...is it weird to say it? It's probably weird to say it. He's going to say it anyway.]
I don't want to just be yours - I want you to be mine too.